chapter 16 blog
I'm doing this blog because I wanted to tell you about my portfolio site, which just went up.
When I restructured this from a commission page to a work blog, I took down my portfolio site and since then it's been a hassle. I re-did the graphics, took down my most outdated pieces, wrote new pieces, edited them, re-did the graphics again, swapped out pieces, and it's been going on and on like that for a long time now.
The thing is I hate making mistakes - and I make so many of them. I want things to be perfect, and sometimes I find myself using the fact that they're never going to be as an excuse. It took me a long time to re-launch my portfolio because I spent a lot of time worrying about stupid stuff. The longer it took me to put it back online, the more pressure I felt to make it better - and eventually my standards just became so high they were unobtainable and trying to work on it at all became such a source of stress that it was easier to shelve than it was to finish - even though I really needed to have a portfolio site.
Today I realized how stupid that was. I'm not perfect, and I'm never going to be. My writing isn't perfect, and it's never going to be. If I keep getting bent out of shape about impossible things, I'm never going to get anywhere, and I have made it too damn far to turn back at this point. So I decided to break the cycle.
Instead of trying one last time to perfect an imperfect project, I just launched it instead. Now the things that I have ready can be seen, and I feel more motivated to work on the bits that weren't ready to go up today with the rest of it.
There are a lot of things missing - as I'm sure you'll notice if you check it out, and there's a little bit of placeholder content as well. I feel so relieved to have hit the "publish" button, even knowing that a lot of changes are going to need to be made and there's still a lot of work to be done.
I still have a lot of things to type/format to go on the site (and you'll notice there are a lot of blank spaces) and there's still some crediting/linking to finish, but it's something, right? I think this is a good step in the right direction, and already I can tell it's going to be very motivational for me.
Anyway, if you guys want to check it out it's right here:
There's going to be a lot of edits and stuff coming over the next several days, but this is what I've got done so far.
I've been doing more writing than I've been doing sharing that writing, and for that I apologize. I'm signing on now to bring people up to speed on what's been going on with me and my professional life.
I updated the graphics for Toxic Bubblegum, which now has a free edition of the zine that you can get just by signing up for our mailing list. We're also doing a lot more web content for creators now, and I highly encourage you to go check out the new site: Toxic Bubblegum
I stepped outside of my creative comfort zone to appear in a tabletop gaming podcast, called Adventures! It's run and hosted by Stupidexport, and even though we're done recording, there are still plenty of episodes left to come out. If you guys want to check it out and get caught up before my character is introduced in episode 7, then you can check out the pilot episode here: Adventures! Episode 1: A Natural One
Not to get too far ahead of myself, but there has been talk of a book adaptation for that, which I'm working on currently.
I also added a new page to this site, which just has a lot of cute animal pictures, but they're my cute animals, so I would highly recommend taking a look.
Other than that I've just been doing the usual stuff, getting kicked off of fiction forums for controversial political horror, submitting stuff to anthologies, and doing running a horror blog.
So that's about it. You guys can consider yourself caught up on all my work stuff! Thanks for checking out the site, and don't forget that I have a bribe slot still open, if anyone's interested in commissions.
Chapter 16 Blog
Just a place for me to give updates on my work and mission of publication.