I'm doing this blog because I wanted to tell you about my portfolio site, which just went up.
When I restructured this from a commission page to a work blog, I took down my portfolio site and since then it's been a hassle. I re-did the graphics, took down my most outdated pieces, wrote new pieces, edited them, re-did the graphics again, swapped out pieces, and it's been going on and on like that for a long time now.
The thing is I hate making mistakes - and I make so many of them. I want things to be perfect, and sometimes I find myself using the fact that they're never going to be as an excuse. It took me a long time to re-launch my portfolio because I spent a lot of time worrying about stupid stuff. The longer it took me to put it back online, the more pressure I felt to make it better - and eventually my standards just became so high they were unobtainable and trying to work on it at all became such a source of stress that it was easier to shelve than it was to finish - even though I really needed to have a portfolio site.
Today I realized how stupid that was. I'm not perfect, and I'm never going to be. My writing isn't perfect, and it's never going to be. If I keep getting bent out of shape about impossible things, I'm never going to get anywhere, and I have made it too damn far to turn back at this point. So I decided to break the cycle.
Instead of trying one last time to perfect an imperfect project, I just launched it instead. Now the things that I have ready can be seen, and I feel more motivated to work on the bits that weren't ready to go up today with the rest of it.
There are a lot of things missing - as I'm sure you'll notice if you check it out, and there's a little bit of placeholder content as well. I feel so relieved to have hit the "publish" button, even knowing that a lot of changes are going to need to be made and there's still a lot of work to be done.
I still have a lot of things to type/format to go on the site (and you'll notice there are a lot of blank spaces) and there's still some crediting/linking to finish, but it's something, right? I think this is a good step in the right direction, and already I can tell it's going to be very motivational for me.
Anyway, if you guys want to check it out it's right here:
There's going to be a lot of edits and stuff coming over the next several days, but this is what I've got done so far.
Chapter 16 Blog
Just a place for me to give updates on my work and mission of publication.